Kabbalah By Heart

Allison Gilbert, LMFT, Certified Kabbalah Coach


This blog comes from my heart. I want to share the Judaism that Jews are yearning for. To help them access the beautiful wisdom coming from their own back yard, ancestors and tribe. And this is for non-Jews as well, to come to know that what has evolved into Western Civilization has come from a depth that is ancient and rarely revealed and mostly distorted due to mistranslations and cultural appropriation and blind anti-semitism. 


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Troubleshooting Your Personality

Posted on May 8, 2023 at 1:45 PM

As I wrote last week, it's the time of Sefirat HaOmer - the Counting of the Omer. We do this for 49 days - 7 times 7 - looking at each of the 7 character traits which make up the soul. Every day for 7 days we are examining one aspect of the personality by interweaving it with itself and each of the other 6 aspects.


Even if you are Jewish, you may not know about this practice during this time of the year. I know that when I found out about it, I was incredibly impressed with my own heritage! It's so sad that the Jewish ways have had to be hidden for so long but very exciting that in the times we now live in, so much is being revealed. I feel incredibly fortunate to get to take a small part in that revelation to my small group of 200 or so subscribers.


Troubleshooting the Personality

I also feel fortunate to have been born during Sefirat HaOmer on the day before the holiday called, Lag B'Omer. My birthdate on the Jewish calendar is this Tuesday! (Find your Jewish birthday here.) It's so much fun to have a birthday on this day because there's a holiday the very next day where there are outdoor bonfires and bar-b-ques and parties! I always feel like I get to celebrate my birthday every year with a party thrown just for me!


Kabbalah Cards Site

Because I'm born during the Sefirah, I get to see how the character trait that we are examining on this day relates to my personality. Really, if you know the 7 character traits and the entire Tree of Life, you can better understand your personality but being born on a day when one of these traits is supposed to be looked into seems to further this idea.


Would you be surprised to learn that the character trait based on my birthday is Humility? Here is the card that I created for this Sefirah.



Kabbalah Cards are Visual Affirmations of Jewish Wisdom

The 7 traits or Soul Powers are:


Chesed - Lovingkindness

Gevurah - Discipline

Tiferet - Compassion

Netzach - Endurance

Hod - Humility

Yesod - Bonding

Malchut - Nobility

Of course, these are very deep and nuanced subjects and much can be written about what the true meaning of each of these are. This is why when they are explored, so much can come out of them. On my Jewish birthday, we are looking at Netzach within Hod - Endurance within Humility. And as an example of how we use this structure, here are some of the things that we are looking at on that day:


"Am I firm in my positions or do I waffle in the name of humility? Does my humility cause others to take advantage of me? True humility does not make you into a 'doormat', on the contrary, Netzach of Hod gives your humility enduring strength." Paraphrased from the book by Rabbi Simon Jacobson, A Spiritual Guide to the Counting of the Omer, 49 steps to Personal Refinement According to Jewish Tradition.


When I think about my natural tendency toward Hod as a main personality trait, I look at troubleshooting my personality. This is because my desire to isolate, along with immersing in my own insecurities are areas I need to constantly work on. Finding Netzach within my Hod nature is a continual desire and helps me to get outside of myself. I see my Hod nature as completely meditative and internalized, while Netzach asks me to do the opposite - to be more like the business man which is the image I used for that card!



Netzach is Opposite Hod on the Tree of Life

The Tree of Life is a very rich symbol within Kabbalah. It helps us to troubleshoot our personality tendencies because each of the sefirot are supposed to contain each of the other ones. It's when we aren't in balance but instead find our personalities immersing within one sefirah over another, that we run into trouble.


The Tree of Life can also help us to heal from stuck emotions. I created a handout for using the sefirah to do a writing exercise that helps people work through either anger or fear in order to heal that emotion. Please feel free to reach out to me if you want me to send you that writing exercise. I have used the exercise multiple times and find that it really does help me to shift my stuck emotions! And there's nothing like another nice self-help tool in your arsenal of tools!


Imagine Being Free

Posted on April 30, 2023 at 4:40 PM

We are now in the days of Counting the Sefirot on the Tree of Life. It's a sort of Jewish Cognitive Behavioral Therapy that we go through each year after leaving Egypt during Passover. The task is to get the slavery mentality out of a newly freed people. The question is, can you be free? Can you be free to make choices in alignment with the Highest Wisdom? Can you be ready to receive the Torah on Shavuot, which is the holiday that comes 49 days later?


The Tree of Life is like the blueprint of our psyche with 4 states of consciousness outlined within it: spiritual, mental, emotional and behavioral. During this time of the year we are focusing on cleaning out and clearing out our misalignments.


Here's a diagram I created a long time ago for seeing the Tree of Life through the lens of Jewish CBT. Each Sefirah can be seen as a Personality Part. And like any personality, the parts can show up in destructive or constructive ways, depending on how closely they are in alignment with Hashem. "Keter" is where we connect to and download that Highest Wisdom.



Imagining Being Free

I don't know about you but I'm definitely not free today. Instead, I'm feeling the Mercury Retrograde that's hitting the heavens right now. (Email me back and let me know if you're feeling it too!) I feel like I'm slogging through this email but so wanting to write it and break through to the other side. As Jews, we are told that we aren't under the control of the stars and planets. Hashem is the Only One in control. But if you're human, like I am, it's so hard to remember that there's nothing Higher than the Invisible One of the Universe.


Kabbalah Cards Site

I like to see this from the perspective of Jewish CBT: I'm either coming from a mind-frame of "Geulah" where everything is miraculous and moving toward better and better or I'm under the influence of a "Golus" mentality, where everything, including myself seems to just be wrong and off. Of course, I created a Kabbalah card for each of these states:



Kabbalah Card for Golus/Exile


Kabbalah Cards are Affirmations of Jewish Wisdom

There are many resources for learning more about the Tree of Life and especially the Counting of the Omer, which is what we are involved in right now. I highly recommend signing up for an email by Rabbi Simon Jacobson or purchasing his book. The Tree of Life is a fantastic way to understand the personality and especially the character traits that make up our psyche. It's called the "blueprint of the Universe" because it's the path where Hashem contracted the All in order to make room for the myriad. So it's a pattern that can be seen everywhere and in everything.


Hopefully, this mercury retrograde will ease up and we'll all start to feel released from its grips. Going through the Sefirot is a fantastic way to refocus and gain back the control. One of my biggest fans requested I teach a class on the sefirot and because I'm still "retired", I don't think a class is coming too soon! But I hope this bit of an email lesson satisfies and gives you all something interesting to ponder.

Overcoming Self - Sabotage

Posted on April 23, 2023 at 4:25 PM

Today's the 2nd day of the new moon of the new Jewish month of Iyar where we enter a month of healing. I put a photo of myself at 3 years old on my screen saver.



How Old Was I?

Seems so appropriate to go back to age 3 to find the healing.


What kind of healing will come in with this new moon? The full moon always comes in with all its glory, definitely noticeable and so out there in its being fully expressed. The new moon, on the other hand, reminds me of my tendency to go inward and be introverted, isolated, insecure. It comes in quietly, slowly, reticent.


Overcoming Self Sabotage

What new energy is going to be birthed inside of you this month? Can you feel it stirring? Just like any new beginning, it doesn't burst on the scene but rather, instead, it creeps in very slowly, behind the scenes and unnoticeable. And begins with a prior completion. Just this morning, I completed the online course I've been working on so diligently for nearly a year - overcoming my self sabotage.


It's a course that I taught to a very small group in S. Cruz way back in 2014 or so. A course that I put online in 2019 when my husband's illness took me away from myself. A course that I never thought I'd complete and with my self sabotage, told myself that it wasn't really worth all the work involved in putting it online. No one would really want to take this course, my self sabotage would tell me.


This past week, I kept hitting road blocks with it and nearly gave up on it. It was really close to being finished too. So close.


When I would work on it, I would remember that it DID have some fine stuff in it and was really worthy. (Full moon?) When I would merely think about it though, I would have those same insecure thoughts. (New Moon?) So, I did a couple things to overcome that insecure inner self- sabotaging voice. First, I completed a craft project and used it like a symbol of completing the online course - just complete it imperfectly but get it done! And I printed out all the nice things you guys have written to me over the past weeks and months of writing these emails.


I was reminded by a buddy that today is a celebration of sorts. I'm celebrating by sharing my course with you all. My next step with the course is to find someone to help me market it and find someone from the teachable website to give me ideas for making it more user friendly. Oy! Reaching out for help isn't easy either!


Anyway, it's a weekly course that goes through the Jewish calendar month by month, giving anyone who knows nothing about Judaism and Kabbalah, a way to become an Insider. History, holidays and concepts from Jewish wisdom are all interspersed, along with ways to use the Kabbalah cards on a monthly basis. It's a simple way to intake a bit at a time over the course of an entire year.


The first time I taught the course, I called it "Way Beyond Astrology" because the months on the Jewish calendar bring us energies we can work with like the energies of the planets and stars. Now I call it "Kabbalah and Judaism 101".


I made the entire year-long course available at a discount but I have 3 courses that can be purchased separately if someone just wants to learn more about Chanukah or Passover, for example. Most of the course is free and lots of it is available for free preview though that could change in the future. Please go over and check it out. Even if you don't want to do the entire course, there's going to be something interesting to you to explore for free. And, of course, let me know what you think.


Take good care,




​Kabbalah and Judaism 101 - go from knowing nothing to becoming an insider.


The Brightest Darkness

Posted on April 17, 2023 at 7:45 PM

The Haggadah asks the important question: Why is this night different? Mah nishtanah ha laila" can be translated as "What changes the night?" According the R. Asher Crispe, this is the most important question of our lives: what changes darkness?


Hashem says in Genesis, after creating everything: this is "good" and "very good". So where's the bad? Isn't that what we're talking about? The darkness is just badness. Right? Well, Kabbalah asks us to think again because Sh'ma Yisrael of course! It's all One, there is NO opposing power, force or entity. Contrary to what the prevailing religion in America tells you. There is no capitol "S", only the suton with a small s - which is more like a verb than a noun.


The Brightest Dark

This email is too esoteric. How to bring it down into mundane life circumstances? I've had a few dark moments in my short life. But again, the Kabbalists tell us that there is no dark other, power or Entity. In fact, my own rabbi has been musing during Pesach: Why is there no talk in the Haggadah about "bad" things? The Egyptian treatment of the Israelites was bad and Chametz is bad but everything else is simply called "bitter".


What's the difference? Bringing it down into my trip to Israel. We visited Kever Rochel in a bulletproof bus with an armed guard and saw the severe walls protecting us from the terrorists. Yes, very bitter. But we got to visit within a majority of Jews. We got to pray to our ancestors despite what kind of treatment lay for us on the other side of that wall.


Wall protecting Jewish visitors to Kever Rochel

Plus, when we went back to our hotels in Jerusalem, the streets were shining and bright and new, possibly because we are the majority? In Genesis, it's all called, "good" and "very good". The bitterness is like the healing medicine balm once it's dealt with. It's an outer covering that inspires us to heal and create more and more goodness.


There is an idea in Chabad Hasidism that medicine can be bitter. Medicine can taste bitter but it can also help and heal. Ain Od Milvado. There is nothing other than the ONE and Only. Whatever happens in this world is in Hashem's Hands. Even the bitterness is for the healing of the world. It's a verb that impels us to create more of the Good.




If we see the darkness as medicine, can we gain the ability to change darkness to LIGHT? As we interact with bitterness, can we change it into something that heals? And as we do that does it foster our ability to be co-creators in a better future? Can we take our focus off the "bad" and instead focus on making the bitterness into a sweetness? Then the little "s" becomes simply a stumbling block that tries to bring us down but instead gives us "stuff" to work on - medicine to help find the Light again.


There really is no "bad" created in the world. Only bitterness that inspires us to find the real truth, the Higher truth beyond and hiding behind and even within the All There Is.


Take good care,



Energizing Passover

Posted on April 17, 2023 at 7:45 PM

My cleaning woman canceled this morning. I was just thinking how lucky I was to get my house cleaned post-covid, pre-Passover. This morning I went out to purchase some last minute food stuff in prep for the week of Passover food. Is the lox at Costco Kosher for Passover? Yes!!! Does the westside Safeway have any more goodies than this side of town does?


I really hate going to the West side! Too many memories both good and sad make me sad. But I love Costco lox and that Safeway. I went and didn't buy any goodies but felt so good that they had them to sell. When you can't find anything but matzo anywhere, it really feels so special when a store actually tries. But sorry, No, I won't buy that jellied candy fruit!! Ha!


Uplifting Passover

Because of covid I had to cancel my seder. I'd invited a whole group of women over. Still, I'm glad I canceled because I'm really very tired and feeling weak and that scares me. My mind goes to fears of long covid. I'm trying to remember that I am still recovering and it can't be long covid yet!!!


Writing you is giving me a boost and I did want to let you all know that I am testing negative now. No more covid.


I am thinking of my trip fondly and want to write you more about it. I just loved Jerusalem. It felt like a Utopia - so clean and so new. So beautiful. When our bus left Jerusalem for our trip home to the airport, I felt a tug of sadness about leaving the Kotel. Memories and flashes of memories of the Kotel are still lifting me up.


Despite anticipating a seder all by myself, I'm remembering how nice it was to do that during the isolation of a couple years ago. It was a deeply meditative seder for me. I pulled this card for today to help me and it's helping me to focus on the positive.



Take good care,



Adulting at 4 years old

Posted on April 17, 2023 at 7:40 PM

Do you ever feel like your own needs are a huge burden? I get that way. It disrupts my ability to take good care of myself. It also makes it hard to ask for help when I need it. This week since coming back from Israel has been one of those wake up calls to look at my patterns from childhood. I decided at 4 yrs old that my needs were a burden. Maybe I decided that even earlier.


I'm a Burden


I'm feeling better but still testing positive for COVID!!! Yes, I started feeling sick a few days after getting off that pea soup of a plane. Still, I have to accept that my needs became a burden to me and I didn't wear my mask as much as I should have on the plane. Isolating yet again has been really hard. But the awareness of the difficulty I have with my own needs is truly enlightening.


I have asked people to help me and everyone steps up and asks to help. Do you have a hard time asking for help or letting people help you? I have such a hard time with it. People literally have to invade my space in order to help me! Ha! I learned very early on that my needs were a burden. Or maybe I just assumed that from the circumstances of having a busy mom with 3 under the age of 5 while she was studying to pass the bar exam!!!!


The trip was like that too. I found myself so reluctant to take a break when I needed it. One day I literally fell down and scraped my knees because I kept pushing myself when I needed to slow down and rest. Well, covid will force you to rest.


I got on the Paxlovid. It's a wonder drug!!! I'm so grateful for it and for my getting scared enough about the diagnosis to reach out for this help. I highly recommend getting on it once you've got the positive diagnosis.


Today I'm practicing reaching out for help by asking my daughter to pick some stuff up at TJ's for me. Plus, I asked her to make me the pasta with chicken she makes. I know, safe to ask Aimee but I am making a change just by asking her. The feeling of being a burden goes so far back and it's a pattern I really want to break.


It's really my own self-care that depends on me NOT making my own needs a burden! Hope you can relate and got something out of my sharing my own challenges!


Take good care,



My Ancestors in Israel

Posted on April 17, 2023 at 7:30 PM

Today is the first day of the month of Nissan which holds the holiday of Passover on the full moon. It's the month of miracles and freedom. It's the month that says no matter where you start, even as a slave, things can get better for you. The Jews brought in the concept that things can get better - determinism doesn't have to control us - there is free will. We all have the freedom to make changes.


But onto my trip to Israel:


The most famous and studied commentator on Torah named, Rashi, said (in the 11th century!!) that there will come a time when the nations will say that we are stealing the land of Israel. That's why, he says, the Torah was started with "G-d created Heaven and Earth", instead of the Torah portion where G-d commands Moses to start counting the moons by the month of Nissan, making Nissan the first of the months - the new year. (There are 4 new years on the Jewish calendar). Instead, Torah began with the creation of the world, says Rashi, not the creation of time, so that we will be able to say to those nations, "G-d gave us the land and He was the One who created the earth"...


This is what stands out to me after visiting the land of Israel - that I visited the most hotly contested pieces of land because I visited all of my ancestral tombs and children do get a bit wonky when dealing with inheritances.


Tombs and Ancestors

I feel very fortunate that I went to Israel with a Chabad group. We were told by our tour guide that no one else tours these contested areas. We went in bullet-proof buses with armed guards - to visit our ancestor's burial places. How strange is that?


The cave of Machpelah houses Adam and Chavah (Eve), Abraham and Sarah, Yitzchok and Rivka (who we couldn't visit due to them being on the other side - for our "cousins" to visit without running into us), and Yaakov and Leah. Visiting this cave was just awesome!!! I could definitely feel the energy. But it was the visit with Momma Rochel in Hevron that effected me the most.



And how can I even say this is real - that they are really there - that these are MY ancestors? The tour guide said that with Kever Rochel, it has been for at least 2000 years that people would say this is where she is. Near Bethlehem which is not a place I can visit without fear.


My claim to this ancestry is a clear line all the way back. I have my father who said he was a Kohein. This means he would be able to count his ancestry all the way back to Moses's brother Aaron. Aaron was from the tribe of Levi who was Momma Rochel's sister's son. Leah's son. So Rochel is my great, great, great aunt. Also, my name sake is Rochel. I was named after my mom's grandmother, Rose. Whose Hebrew name was Rachel. My Hebrew name is Chaya Rochel or Chaya Raisel in Yiddish. Literally, my name means, Life of Rachel in Hebrew.


So yes, I felt the most connection to Rachel when I visited her incredibly protected tomb. I have a puzzle of Rachel's tomb that looks nothing like it does now. It's now got severe walls surrounding it. Since giving away the land for peace, we've had to protect this place so that we could visit it without being murdered.



Not wanting to be harsh but that's the story. The visit to Israel was very meaningful to me and so interesting because when I think back over what I saw, most of it was the burial places. I did pray to our ancestors and I prayed at the Kotel (wall) and placed prayers in its cracks for my friends and family. It's a trip of a lifetime and I'm so glad I did it.



Now back to my reality of being retired and starting my new bucket-list life.


Take good care,



Making Security a Priority

Posted on March 6, 2023 at 4:00 PM

Fear is part of the DNA of being Jewish. I've learned to protect myself by making security a priority. I'm grateful to be going to Israel when they've got the iron dome and the walls keeping out most of the terrorism they experienced during the 90's. I lately read a book about the history of modern-day Israel since the late 1800's and it was really interesting. I also took a JLI course on the '67 war. They both scared me and settled my mind.


I loved the following quote by Tzvi Freeman about Jewish DNA fear and the holiday of Purim.


​Purim Backwards


By Tzvi Freeman


On Purim, it’s a mitzvah to hear the story of Esther read from a scroll—called a “megillah”—both by day and by night.


The Talmud tells us, “If you read the story backwards, you haven’t read the story.” (Megillah 2a.)


Of course, that means you have to read the story in the order it’s written.


But the Baal Shem Tov gave a deeper meaning to the words of our sages:


If you read the story of Esther and of her people, of the rise of Haman and his own self-destruction, of secret heroes and hidden miracles…


…if you read all this as though it was all a backstory —something that occurred a long time ago and now provides only historical context —you haven’t read the story.


Because Jews have never had the luxury to retell this story as something we have put behind us. (my bolding)


Haman persists to reappear in his many incarnations, as a dictator, as an ideology, as the antipathy that surrounds us, or, most pernicious of all, as the cold apathy that chills our heart from within.


Both as a nation, as well as individuals, we rely every day on hidden miracles, often through the agency of secret Esthers and Mordechais, and always by divine intervention, simply to remain the nation we were chosen to be.


A Jew looks around and discovers: We are standing in the middle of the story of Purim right now.


—Keter Shem Tov, Hosafot, 100. Likutei Sichot vol. 6, p. 189, 385. Ibid vol. 7, p. 332. Purim, 5736, 5742.

​By Tzvi Freeman​

From the wisdom of the Lubavitcher Rebbe, of righteous memory; words and condensation by Rabbi Tzvi Freeman. Subscribe and get your dose daily. To order Rabbi Freeman’s latest book, Wisdom to Heal the Earth, click here.​


Prioritizing Security

It's a delicate balance to allow in love and bring down the walls between people - in our every day lives. How do you stay hopeful, but still safe and protected? Can you take risks? What exactly is risky? These are the questions I had to ask myself once my husband was gone. I had put these things into the idea of having a husband - that I was protected, safe. And he was a commanding figure, someone who took up space in a room. That must have comforted me since I liked to hide.


How does a person open up to love again and to trust a person? All I can say about this is, do I trust myself? I ask myself,



  • "what am I seeing?"
  • "Is it a fantasy?"
  • "Is it real?"
  • "And what are the actions I see? The language used, the communication? The behaviors?"
  • "what's happening in the present moment and what has happened in the past?"
  • "What are the questions I need to ask to feel more confident in not getting hurt?"


Being a single woman has made me feel very vulnerable. Having had my husband die has made me feel very fragile. Thankfully, I have found my strength again and I do want to open myself to love again.


Jews are celebrating Purim in a couple of days at the full moon. It's a holiday that in 2023 begins Monday night, March 6 and continues through Tuesday, March 7 (and extending through Wednesday in Jerusalem). It's a holiday where we read the book of Esther, known as the Megillah. Read more about it here. It's another commemoration of a time when they wanted to kill us but we won, so let's eat - or rather, let's drink!!! (Take my online class to learn more: The Tree and The Queen )


I love the idea that we are told to drink until we can't tell the difference between Mordechai (the hero) and Haman (the villain). I have always pondered that and wonder how it is supposed to help us get beyond duality.


Still, Pikuakh Nefesh - is supposed to inform all security decisions.


"Pikuach nefesh (Hebrew: פקוח נפש, lit.'watching over a soul') is the principle in Halakha (Jewish law) that the preservation of human life overrides virtually any other religious rule of Judaism. In the event that a person is in critical danger, most mitzvot, including those from the Ten Commandments of the Torah, become inapplicable if they would hinder the ability to save oneself or someone else in such a situation.[1] However, there are certain exceptions; some rules and commandments may not be broken under any circumstances and thus sanction an act of self-sacrifice." https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pikuach_nefesh​


Being able to tell the difference between the villains and the heroes is the only way to maintain the Security of the Lives of people.


It's something to ponder in our every day interactions with the people in our lives who allow us to simply live our lives - or don't. And to ponder where I am not allowing myself to live my life and just blaming others for my unhappiness - because truly, the life I live is ultimately up to me, no matter who I have in my life - even if a neighbor may want me dead. Right? Of course, right! My life is up to me. Will l take some risks or will I stay safe, avoiding every risk that may be out there? Next week at this time, I will be in Israel!!


Take good care and Have ah freilichen Purim,




Spontaneous Consulting

Posted on March 3, 2023 at 3:50 PM

Have you ever had a hard day or moment and just needed some reassurance about what it's all about? Cards work so well for that! I have been consulting my cards pretty regularly lately and am so proud of what I have created. They are so deep that I really don't need to pull a card every day because many of them can inform me for days, weeks, and an entire month!


I get answers to the questions that plague me.


Mostly the question is this:


how can I face this thing in the best, highest, most loving and giving way, with the greatest of service to the planet?

Spontaneous Consulting

My favorite way to work with my cards is when I'm struggling and just need some higher input into how to handle things.


Kabbalah Cards Site

This is the card I pulled for today when I had a moment of struggle:



My Interpretation Booklet gives me a good direction for the meaning of pulling this card today: Find the sparks in your challenges, the blessings in disguise.

Does that apply to you to today too? Write me back and let me know. It's such a beautiful Kabbalah Concept that can be applied to your life at any time. I am so grateful to have learned these concepts and created a user friendly way for people to apply them to their lives too. Try it out. If you don't have a deck, go to my free class online through the link above. Ask the same question I do and randomly open one of the cards.


When I was diagnosed with cancer in 2009, I remembered that one time my friend gave me a dollar so that I could do a mitzvah once I got to where I was travelling to - to get me there safely. It's a Jewish custom to do that. Giving charity is a mitzvah. Teaching Kabbalah was my dollar to get to the other side of cancer safely.


Here's a picture of what I was sent by JLI for the Israel trip I'm taking in 9 days! This was the first on my bucket list. A trip to Israel to celebrate my retirement!



Today is my 2nd day of retirement! I'm so looking forward to my bucket list years! So many good things are just over the horizon for me. My last session with a client on Tuesday night was so beautiful, lovely and loving. A great send off! With someone I have been in contact with since March 17th of 2011. Just a couple years after I was diagnosed! My hair was probably still short and curly!!!! Ha!


I wish you a good week full of seeing the blessing in disguise!


Take good care,



The Power of Drawing Your Desires to You

Posted on February 28, 2023 at 12:20 AM

When you've been through trauma - as we all have, you can end up with something called PTSD. This term can refer to a soldier who actually relives a past event as if it's happening in the present moment. For many of us, though, it could simply be a fear that what happened in the past could happen again in the future.


After my husband died, I feared others of my family dying too. I also feared I would get a relapse on my cancer and die myself. It may not be the classic definition of PTSD but does seem quite similar to me. The biggest problem with this is that any time we assume what happened in the past will happen in the future, we risk creating more of the same.


Koach HaMoshech - The Power of Drawing

In Hebrew we transliterate the guttural H sound with "ch". Koach HaMoshech is translated as the Power of Drawing. In the word Moshech, you'll see the name "Moshe" which is the Hebrew name of Moses - who was drawn out of the Nile. It is a power we can use to draw what we desire toward us - or what we fear. (Be careful what you wish for!)


I learned from one of my favorite Kabbalah teachers, Rav Doniel Katz that Rebbe Nachman had a wonderful explanation of what we call today, the "Law of Attraction". In fact, the Rebbe taught that it's a concept going all the way back to the Torah and the 10 Commandments, specifically the one, "Thou shalt not covet." Because if you do, it could be like stealing something that isn't yours. There is inherent within us a great Power - of drawing to us those things we "covet". In other words, we draw on the things we love, want and desire.


But as long as you aren't working on drawing something to you that isn't yours, it's kosher! Go ahead and draw all of your dreams to you! Absolutely. Hashem wants our best dreams to come true! And Hashem has that same dream for us, for our world - it's called, Geulah - the time to come that is a Utopia of sorts. This world should become a dwelling place for the most High! Ah-mein!!!


Kabbalah Cards Site

A Prayer is also a form of Koach HaMoshech!!! There is a very special Jewish tradition when you hear someone say that something good should happen - say emphatically, "AMEIN!"

So, please know that you are loved and supported and fully able to realize all of your highest dreams! My teacher Shifra Chana Hendrie told us about a fabulous tool for manifesting our highest aspirations and goals, called "Future pulling". She told us to write emails to each other congratulating our fellow student on accomplishing what she has been wanting to accomplish. We've had some truly incredible manifesting that's been going on for us with all of our future pulling !!!


So find a friend, write them a "future pulling" message! Have them write you one too!


Today is the 5th day of the new month of Adar - a month we are told increases our JOY. I did my Adar Layout and it's all about the power of drawing. I hope you can read my notes in this photo. Out of 49 cards, I pulled the exact cards that perfectly answered my questions. This layout can be done with any other type of question:

A Simple 3-Card Layout - Enjoy!

What blocks me,

what helps me,

what's the next step!


Let's all leave the past in the past this month and open to the future of our wildest dreams! Take actions that bring the future into the present. Hold to the future fulfillment of all of our wishes. Hashem only wants you to succeed.


Take good care,




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